I'm awake at 5 in the morning, reading my ultimate crush's blog - John Mayer. For this was relaxation, reading a man's honest thoughts and looking at his beautiful photography and profound posts. I need to relax even just for a day, to make up for the stress of the coming weekdays.
Last Friday at work, I had to endure more than 6 hours of migraine that couldn't be defeated by Advil. I forgot my diet for the day and ate as much I could. To no avail, it wouldn't go away. I did my reports and files, had a meeting, with my eyes squinting, my fingers massaging my forehead, hoping the pain will go away. My workmates asked me to take photographs of their team, thankfully I had a blast and for a short time my migraine had gone. As I travelled to school, the migraine turned into a mild headache. Soon, I was feeling better. The only problem was I was sleepy. So sleepy that when I was bowing my head to write on my notebook, I would find myself half asleep for 10 seconds. So sleepy that when I would squint to look at my professor's writing on the board, I would find myself in a state a hallucination and dreaming for another 10 seconds. Thankfully, we had a discussion in class which I had a very deep interest on and was awake.
Fear. This was the feeling I had when I had the migraine. I thought I'll be back on the hospital for two months since this was what I had the first sign that I wasn't feeling well and had something serious. I wasn't being a trooper lately as well. I was sleepy and tired even just chugged down coffee, and lately been losing appetite despite the lack of sleep and even if my stomach's empty. I was also being forgetful a lot lately. Definitely, I'm stressed out. However, with a long exam, and papers due, and work on top of that in the upcoming week, I need to relax. I have to. With that, I'll stop my recent comeback to smoking. I have to.
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